“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” – Philippians 4:4-9
The Cesarean is now scheduled for this Wednesday, January 30. My test results came back showing mild preeclampsia. My regular doctor is out of town this week and the doctor we met with felt strongly that we would not make it to February 5 and the sooner we can do the C-section, the better. This is not the news we had wanted to get, but we will trust God’s plan for us. He knew this would happen. He had already planned for this doctor to deliver Epiphany and not our regular doctor. Why? I dunno. But He’s in control and none of this has come as a surprise to Him.
We’re both nervous and continually praying for God to calm our spirits and give us peace. Timmy kept repeating over and over at the doctor office “be anxious for nothing…be anxious for nothing.” We went straight from the doctor appointment over to the hospital to take care of all my pre-op labs and paperwork. Please pray that everything stays stable so that we don’t need to go in emergently. Please pray that we feel the overwhelming peace of God surround our family.
We’re going to meet our sweet baby in just two days. I have such mixed emotions of fear and excitement, peace and anxiety. I’m trying so hard to not think of this as the end. I’m trying to focus on the good. We will get to hold her and kiss her and snuggle her. I’m trying so hard not to mourn my child until there is a real reason to. We have no idea what God’s plan is. Forgive us Lord for putting human limitations on you! There is no power like His! Just today I heard from a friend whose mother has been in ICU. The doctors had seen a mass around her heart one day and the next it was gone! He still performs miracles. Whether He will choose life here for Epiphany or not, we’ll find out soon enough. She is His. She always has been. He loves her more than we ever could.
Please keep praying for our family. Thank you for everything you have already done for us. “I thank my God every time I remember you.” Phil 1:3 That verse is so true for us! We have been blessed to experience this with so many amazing people and we thank God for you! Thank you for being there for us.