Pippy's Journey

Change of Plans

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” – Philippians 4:4-9

The Cesarean is now scheduled for this Wednesday, January 30. My test results came back showing mild preeclampsia. My regular doctor is out of town this week and the doctor we met with felt strongly that we would not make it to February 5 and the sooner we can do the C-section, the better. This is not the news we had wanted to get, but we will trust God’s plan for us. He knew this would happen. He had already planned for this doctor to deliver Epiphany and not our regular doctor. Why? I dunno. But He’s in control and none of this has come as a surprise to Him.

We’re both nervous and continually praying for God to calm our spirits and give us peace. Timmy kept repeating over and over at the doctor office “be anxious for nothing…be anxious for nothing.” We went straight from the doctor appointment over to the hospital to take care of all my pre-op labs and paperwork. Please pray that everything stays stable so that we don’t need to go in emergently. Please pray that we feel the overwhelming peace of God surround our family.

We’re going to meet our sweet baby in just two days. I have such mixed emotions of fear and excitement, peace and anxiety. I’m trying so hard to not think of this as the end. I’m trying to focus on the good. We will get to hold her and kiss her and snuggle her. I’m trying so hard not to mourn my child until there is a real reason to. We have no idea what God’s plan is. Forgive us Lord for putting human limitations on you! There is no power like His! Just today I heard from a friend whose mother has been in ICU. The doctors had seen a mass around her heart one day and the next it was gone! He still performs miracles. Whether He will choose life here for Epiphany or not, we’ll find out soon enough. She is His. She always has been. He loves her more than we ever could.

Please keep praying for our family. Thank you for everything you have already done for us. “I thank my God every time I remember you.” Phil 1:3 That verse is so true for us! We have been blessed to experience this with so many amazing people and we thank God for you! Thank you for being there for us.

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15 thoughts on “Change of Plans

  1. Jessica, we will be praying for an army of angels to surround you and Tim and Epiphany providing you with peace and strength! Much love from Daniel, Codie and Paul.

    1. Jessica, I am lifting you, Timmy, and Pippy up to the Father. My heart is with you in faith! Hugs, Becky

  2. Love and Prayers abound for you, Tim and Epiphany! Baby Pippy has already made such a large impact (and will no doubt continue to do so) as your experience thus far has been a beautiful journey of unselfish love. Your strength, faith and courage has been an inspiration to many and I hope you will feel a return of some of that with the blanket of love and prayers that will be surrounding you. You have been blessed with special grace Jessica to love and appreciate the life within you, many could not have come this far. Don’t be scared baby girl, good mommies love their baby no matter what–and YOU already are an AMAZING Mommy. I pray that God would continue to enlighten your faith, give you hope, courage, healing, peace and strength and continues to “reveal the power of His love.”

    “The ‘gift of life,’ God’s special gift, is no less beautiful when it is accompanied by illness or weakness, hunger or poverty, mental or physical handicaps, loneliness or old age. Indeed, at these times, human life gains extra splendor as it requires our special care, concern and reverence. It is in and through the weakest of human vessels that the Lord continues to reveal the power of His love”.–Terence Cardinal Cooke, Archbishop New York

  3. Psalm 139

    1 O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
    2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
    you discern my thoughts from afar.
    3 You search out my path and my lying down
    and are acquainted with all my ways.
    4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
    behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
    5 You hem me in, behind and before,
    and lay your hand upon me.
    6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
    it is high; I cannot attain it.
    7 Where shall I go from your Spirit?
    Or where shall I flee from your presence?
    8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
    If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
    9 If I take the wings of the morning
    and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
    10 even there your hand shall lead me,
    and your right hand shall hold me.
    11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
    and the light about me be night,”
    12 even the darkness is not dark to you;
    the night is bright as the day,
    for darkness is as light with you.
    13 For you formed my inward parts;
    you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
    14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a]
    Wonderful are your works;
    my soul knows it very well.
    15 My frame was not hidden from you,
    when I was being made in secret,
    intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
    16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
    in your book were written, every one of them,
    the days that were formed for me,
    when as yet there was none of them.
    17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
    18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
    I awake, and I am still with you.

  4. “Be still and know.” He IS with you guys – all 3 of you – and your story is continuing to touch lives. Epiphany’s life, while it’s unknown how long it’ll last, is one of the most beautiful blessings I’ve seen unfold (even though I’ve never met you, Jessica, and have only had a brief encounter with your husband at the restaurant!). You should be so proud of the amazing things your daughter is doing with you, through you, and with God. You all are oh-so-loved by the greatest source of Love, and Cory and I are continuing to pray for your family. Cherish the next few days together, try (as hard as it may be) to not allow Satan to use anxiety to steal your time, and I’ll be watching for an update. I’m pouring out lots of love for yall tonight, as I am sure a lot of others in your lives are – just enjoy it and the time you three have together. With love and blessings – Holly

  5. Oh! And if you have a chance to, I saw your post earlier where you quoted Psalm 139 — if you’re able to sometime tomorrow, grab an eyeliner pencil and write it out on your belly 🙂 I saw this photo on pintrest a while back and after seeing your post, it made me think it might be a sweet photo for you to have 🙂

  6. Since I was a young girl I’ve had two mantras when I find myself worrying or “stewing” about something: “Be still and know that I am God” or “be anxious and fear not”. These are from two of my “go to” verses, Psalm 46:10 and Philippians 4:6. My grandmother was quite a worrier, she would ring her hands and keep repeating over and over, “Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy.” I remember asking her why she did this and she told me it was her way of reminding herself to allow God to be in control. We may not be able to stop worrying about something but we must always remember that every detail of our lives is in God’s hands. He is loving and merciful and everything will work out for the best – if we just let Him have control. I remember thinking then, how can I “let” God do anything? Isn’t He all powerful? How can I not “let” Him do what He wants? But I grew to understand that we have the option- the choice- to keep God out of our lives. We can choose to take over and run things the way we want and basically really screw everything up – just by not allowing Him to be in control.

    We must remember that during the difficulties we face in this life – “if the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea” – OUR God is in control. It isn’t through the lack of trials we receive this calmness; it’s from a constant and deep reliance on God during these trials. It’s by remembering how He has interceded for His children in the past that we can “be still”. It’s because we know “God’s past” that we have a calmness for “our future” that others don’t understand. We know we need to pray and take courage; but we can’t do it on our own. We need to depend on God. We must fulfill our responsibilities in the uncertainty of life but still have an unwavering reliance upon God. Through all of this, we have to remember that we are human – that we tend to be weak and often need the support of others to remain faithful. Basically, I have to remind myself when I get overwhelmed to just chill out or “be still”. Then I can face the true reality…that God is infinite, God created everything in the universe – including me – and He is in control. I can have calmness in the confidence that I receive through His Son who gave His life for me.

    Today I pray that God has allowed me to pass on to my child this strong enduring faith that was passed on to me. I pray that God will ease this burden and give her peace. I pray that she will be able to be still and know that He is God.

    Psalm 46

    1 God is our refuge and strength,
    an ever-present help in trouble.
    2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
    and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
    3 though its waters roar and foam
    and the mountains quake with their surging.[c]
    4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
    the holy place where the Most High dwells.
    5 God is within her, she will not fall;
    God will help her at break of day.
    6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
    he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
    7 The Lord Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.
    8 Come and see what the Lord has done,
    the desolations he has brought on the earth.
    9 He makes wars cease
    to the ends of the earth.
    He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
    he burns the shields[d] with fire.
    10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”
    11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.

  7. Jessica and Tim-
    Thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers. I am amazed and inspired by your faith you’ve kept through this time. Baby Ephiphany is so blessed to have you as her parents. We wish you all the best tomorrow.
    – Brittney and Adam

  8. This is a quote from James Meikle who lived in the 1700’s. May it comfort your hearts and bring you peace as you trust in the One, who does all things well….With God there is a time to give— and a time to take; a time to remove— and a time to restore; a time to afflict— and a time to comfort. All these things point me to my latter end, and admonish me to converse with the unseen world. Now, what solid consolation may this yield to me— that he who is my best friend, is Supreme Governor over all! He will shortly, through all events, bring me to the eternal enjoyment of himself!

    Meikle, James ~ Converse with the Unseen World

  9. My prayers are with you and Tim and your baby. May God bless and comfort you all, and keep you in the palm of His hand.

  10. Jessica and Tim,

    I was so sorry to hear that your time with your sweet baby was cut short. I can only hope that my child was there to welcome yours back home. We will all be together one day rejoicing—hold on to that in the days and months ahead. Hugs and prayers!

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